My Weight Loss Journey

Ugh. My name is Holly Darling, and I am a STRESS EATER. There, I admitted it. I have struggled so much in the past month to succeed with my weight loss. I was on a great roll with my weight creeping down, and it has maintained for a long time, with the exceptional 2-5 pound give or take. Now I feel I need a major motivation to help me through. I know I can lose this weight, my last 25 pounds. It seems it wants to linger on my ass and my brain is helping it stay attached. I feel good, but I know I can feel better. I need to feel better, I am now craving it. I think I need to find a "mommy" time to exercise - which is almost impossible. I know that sounds like an excuse, but seriously, I don't know where my days go. They begin and end so quickly, I need to sit down at the end of the day and literally say "what the hell just happened?"

Maybe I can blame my weight on potty training (he he). I guess I need to find something to blame it on! It has been a huge stress and I cannot wait until it's over. When you have kids, nobody tells you about the fact that they grow up. Yep, you heard it - they GROW UP! And we as parents, yes the parents, have to do potty training - what?!? Can't we ship them off to potty training camp? There's gotta be something out there....maybe....

Mason is now 6 MONTHS OLD! I am still breastfeeding him, which I love, plus I get to eat more with my wonderful nursing diet! Maybe I'm eating too much??? Nah. I love my weight watchers nursing diet, who could complain about getting 10 extra points a day!?! It's fantastic! The poor kid has his 6 month appointment on Monday morning - more shots :( I hate shots. I know he needs them and blah blah blah, but it totally sucks to look down at their innocent face, happy one moment and then freaking out the next. Ok, that was a tangaent, but I'm stressed about his appointment.

Holy crap, Halloween is creeping up on us and that means Thanksgiving and Evan's birthday are coming too. Then the Christmas holidays!!! Whoa! What happened to this year? As we get older, does each day go by faster and faster? I know I mention this a lot, but I wish I could have a remote control for life and hit pause once in a while.

I'm going to be 26 in a week. I feel I have accomplished a lot and I feel really good about it. I'll be 26, I'm happily married to my adorable husband - 5 years next June, I have 2 healthy and beautiful kiddos, I get to stay home with my sweethearts, I have a nice home, a car of my own - the SUPER FUV, a yard to play in, a tv to watch, a warm bed to crawl into at night...you get the point. Life is wonderful, and right now I feel like I'm taking it for granted. I need to relax and enjoy these moments before my kids are off to college, or having kids of their own - when they're out of college and married of course!

Maybe I need a break from trying so hard to lose weight. Maybe I need to take time for myself and concentrate on losing this weight so I feel better about myself. Maybe there's a reason that I'm struggling so much with this weight loss. What could that be? I don't know. Maybe someday I'll figure it out. Well, I should sign out now, I have stuff to do.

Now....if only I can find this potty training camp....